He tells me I’m beautiful

That’s all it really takes

Reality calls me an idiot

I still make the same mistakes

I’ve got the same bad song on repeat

I know all the words too well

I always know right from the start

but I pretend that I can’t tell

I try to make it work

because I hate it when I’m wrong

I invest all of my emotions

but the pattern is just too strong

To him, it’s always the same

just some temporary fun

just a little entertainment

until he’s ready to move on

every time it happens

I tell myself it’s not the same

But it’s a refrain of self destruction

I’m the only one to blame